hey!!
today was last of 2 day hol and my bday!! hahah it feels weird.. ur always counting down to ur bday but when it comes it feels like any other day!! hahah but gd thing it falls on a holiday this year.. so i can have fun wif frens. 'jamming' at uncle adrian's house jus now was quite fun.. but i shud go and learn some new songs!! if onli i had more time. haha. was also really fun to do familiar things we did last year.. like swing on the swing and play intellectual games. haha. thx to all who wished me happy birthday!! and also thx to heng min for a nice nike shoe bag =)
hmm i was thinking, when i talk to pple i dun have much stuff to talk abt!! i always say, i play guitar, and yup. so i am going to think of more things i like to do!! altho many of them are really weird.
1. i listen to jay chou!! but am a closet fan actually.
2. i like to bowl actually, and play table tennis too. i shud go organise some of this stuff when i am more free haha!! tennis is fine too.
3. i like to research on cars
4. i find interior design really interesting.. altho i noe nuts abt it haha.
5. i play neopets occasionally
6. i like red.
7. i like to investigate about personality types and pple!! altho im probably not veri gd at it either haha.
the reason why i dun tell others abt these stuff cos its really subjective. hahah but its really wad i like to do. besides playing guitar all day. haha. ok tts abt it for now. i need to go sleep!!! tml guit lesson in the early morning, need to leave house at 8. cya!!
hey!! oh no i havent blogged for reall long. haha.
this week has gone by without me remembering much except for the stuff we learn in class. i'm becoming more and more used to (or rather numb) to the new environment.. altho it is still awfully weird. the interconnectedness between pple in my level is so great that i feel very left out. for me, i do take quite long to develop friendships with pple.. so i'm not used to getting out of my comfort zone (thats already not very comfortable) and trying to get to know pple well within a short time span. hahah i find myself losing the ability to be myself and i can feel the fear of talking building up again. i NEED to be thick skinned.
anyways, on a much much much better note, yesterday my frens gave me my birthday present!! 7 of them chipped in to buy me a mini amplifier. its realli cool.. it runs on a 9V batt and is 100% portable :)))) its the first time i've ever received a guitar-related present and i think it was a really nice surprise. (hahah but of course one of my frens who i went shopping with got the idea while we were walking around peninsula plaza looking for guit stuff last week)
and today!! the usually guitar-playing-couch-potato chen yi actually went out to watch a movie!! (the last one i watched was.. urh...... just like heaven?!?) yupz. memoirs of a geisha is a really gd show. altho for a large part of the show it was so sad and dehumanised that i cudnt sympathise with the main character. until the last part which i thought was the most touching. mhmm. we shud all treasure our gift of free choice.
well tts all for now. my father invited some students who are studying at NTU and NUS who are from china over to join us for reunion dinner just now. now they are watching some weird loud chinese show upstairs. lolol. yeaps. tts all for now. CNY hols is here!!
heyy!!!! today was a happy day!!
today melanie was baptised!! its really nice to see someone with a heart and character like melanie obey the Lord. congratulations and i hope u continue to grow in faith!! aft tt we celebrated all the pple hus bdays are in january.
melanie, gareth, me and jeronme cutting the cake! hahah i think this is the best pic of 3 nick took. look at the background!! timothy is doing some weird action like punching his own face. lolol.
aft that we went for lunch at harbourfront, and we managed to compress the 11 of us into one long table. haha. aft lunch we took 166 to tan tock seng hospital to visit uncle eric. even in hospital and after an operation, uncle eric was really happy to see us, and talked to us abt a lot of stuff, like how he is not affected by the look of blood, and the graphic nature of operations. hmm when u visit someone in hospital it is sort of to bring cheer to that person.. but i think it was the other way around for the few of us, as uncle eric was so energetic in speech even while on the hospital bed. uncle eric also shared with us how to prepare a good sermon.. its the verses that are the most important, altho pictures and other animation on powerpoint slides do help. yeap. hope he recovers quickly.
oh, and God really provides.. i almost dint want to go visit uncle eric cos i wanted to go to chinatown to take pictures for my chinese project, but it so happened that 166 passes thru chinatown.. so i managed to take some shots of chinatown from inside the bus!! and altho some are a bit blur, underexposed or overexposed.. i onli needed 2 for the assignment. so i killed two birds with one stone!! hhaha.
okay here is something that i've wanted to post for a very long time.. it may seem very comical to you.. but its what i really think!! i shall probably look at this post a few years down the road and laugh, and maybe even show this to my future wife. haha.
What i look for in a girl
- Must be Christian (preferably from PP =) and be willing to serve God with me
- someone who loves me for loving guitar (and preferably appreciates what i play) =P
- someone who i can be myself around.. who i can share any thoughts with, and who values my thoughts
- someone who has a warm smile
- hahah basically someone who has the missing parts of my ISTJ personality.. extraversion, feeling, and perceptiveness (is that P? haha). i think that wud be a very fun loving person.
- who doesnt want to have a good looking person for a spouse rite? hahah i really dunno how to describe the physical appearance of girls i like.. but when i see i will noe ;)
- someone who knows how to dress in a feminine way
- must be a good friend.
yeap anyways thats abt it.. i think if i go on the list wud get crappier and crappier. number 1 is the most important; number 2 is quite necessary cos she wud hear at least one hour of me practising guitar a day, (and it wud be one of the ways i show eros ;) i know number 6 isnt that important, as 1 Sam 16:7 says that man looks at the outward appearance but God looks at the heart. but unfortunately i tend to judge people based on their physical appearance a lot, probably cos of my S and J. yeaps so im trying to develop more F and P, so that i will be a more balanced personality.
hahah ok just some random thoughts from me. cya!!
mid wk update!!
lessons have finally started, and today is the 2nd day of lessons, and we've met abt all our teachers. i think most of my teachers are quite nice, especially my physics teacher. hahah he encourages us to eat sweets to stay up in class!! lolol. and some of the class sizes are reallll small.. physics has 12 pple, mep has 11. yeap. and hahah my class has many chinese scholars!! i think they are reall smart but i havent actually talked to them much. most pples impression of them are bad but i think it shudnt be. everyone shud be treated equally =)
lessons-wise, i think econs is quite interesting, but its really taxing. and econs is not abt money!! hhaahah. and im also still getting used to the new timetable.. we have weird break times scattered everywhere, and on weird days like today we have 2 20min recesses with a 40 min period in btwn. and the journey to the canteen is.. realll long. hahah.
but other than that schs ok. yup. cya
hello again!! hahah its the weekend again and i feel obliged to blog. lol i think i notice a change in the way i write. no more nonsense singlish anymore. for these 2 yrs. hahah.
yeap its the 2nd wk.. and its pretty slack cos its mostly lectures on the bridging course for new students, so no homework yet =P and even tho its been 2 wks i have not held a conversation lasting more than 5 mins with a girl. hahahahah. but i think i have changed a lot over these 2 wks.. my perception of the world. relating with pple in sch has become much more complex, and the gossiping is well under way, and i think it wud be good for me to do what my fren intends to do: 'maintain a low profile'. for this wk im still sticking around my close frens from last year. hahah my last year class was realli a gift for me, cos we were a big class of introverts, but after 2 yrs together we managed to bond in an extraordinary way.
lessons are starting nxt tues, and i am sure the flood of homework will be quite great, but i trust in God to help me thru this year. i am going to need a good system of planning my work and dividing my attention evenly between all subjects, as well as push on in areas such as my music practice and spiritual walk. just now's meeting at louis hse was great.. i can feel the drifting already as the school term begins. the onli way to counter this drifting is to push closer to the group, cos life is like climbing an escalator that is going downwards, must always progress.
yeap. tts all for tonight i guess. cya
hey!!
i just came back from my 4th piano class. hahah and my teacher who speaks chinese isn't so bad after all.. just that she cannot teach the more in depth stuff that my guitar teacher can.. like musicality and phrasing. but she can spot where i dun observe rests >.< hahah and today i had a masterclass with the head teacher of the school, sylvia ng (its part of the music school education u see). and she is HOW PRO. hahah i only saw her for.. 20 minutes? but the explosion of energy she gives.. just makes you want to play piano more!! i played for her my 2 trump pieces that i cudnt even play till the end.. sonatina in C by mozart and chopin's nocturne in Eb. and she thinks i shud go learn fantasie impromptu -.-
but she is holding the musical side of me that i am missing so badly.. phrasing, tone.. things that my guitar teacher has been trying so hard to teach me but he cudnt do it to the max, probably cos of his personality. too bad i cant change my personality so quickly to have an explosion of energy that wud have the most naughty of children captivated. but thats what sylvia ng has!! hahah i loveeeeeee meeting pro pro musicians. yeah but i only get to masterclass with her once a month.
feeling better. i shall go sleep.
phew. the past 4 days have really been a challenge for me, and school will never be the same again, neither will i.
i just really thank God that i managed to survive it and that it ended on an ok note. and that i managed to stay alive despite tues and wed until 6, and ytd and today until 10+++. ok heres a brief introduction to the new Year 5 @ acs. there are arnd 360 students in year 5, and there are 69 girls only. hence, terrible proportions. and terrible politics come with that. my orientation group had 3 girls and 12 guys for the 1st 2 days, and all 3 girls were extroverts and very strong characters. hahah so i basically just gave up talking to them, cos other guys were hanging around them more, and they also dint seem very interested to talk to me. im pretty sure they cant even remember my name.
I DUNNO. its very difficult to explain. especially when i haven't talked to girls who are the same age as me for more than a year. i just felt really awkward the past few days. i need to see you all long time church frens again to regain my energy (and the ability to be myself again). yeaps.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. - Romans 8:28
memories of thxgiving party lol.. this is a pic of nehe and gideon playing LF together.. i think its super cute lol.
first day of sch was quite okay i thought.. cos my orientation group was quite interesting, and got people who will talk. but there are many many many weird weird factors.. like they only admitted 69 girls.. and each group has like.. 3 girls and 12 guys. terrible proportions. so i decided that its better not to try to talk to a girl unless she talks to me first ^^ typical introverted me. i mean.. whats 4 more years without girls in sch? lol.
but anyway i was reallll tired when i came back. and i tell u.. all this orientation hard is really hard on my close sch frens.. and they are all introverts.. and they dun really function that well in a large group of 15 people. yeah. but i shall try my best to maintain my positive outlook on school. even tho my introverted frens complain to me so much lol.
yeap thats abt it. oh and our new sch tie looks realliiiiiiii weird haha. oh and i cant go for careteam on friday cos sch ends at 10pm :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
here goes nothing!!
hahah i dint really experience the 'it's the new year!!' feeling last nite at 12 midnight.. cos i was sleeping fatigued from thxgiving stayover. lolz. i managed to stay all the way thru!! but my stamina has definitely decreased.. hahah once u all guys left at 10:30am i slept all the way till 3pm. lol if my mom hadnt woken me up i wud have not been able to sleep last nite.
today at church was really interesting, with all the guys in suits. and me in the odd blue blazer hahah. came home early after lunch to sleep somemore haha, while the rest of the guys were playing dota. i havent stepped into a LAN shop for a long time and i dun think i will enter one again for a long time.. i just dun like the atmosphere. haha.
yeap anyways, today is new years day!! happy new year!! i think i will start this new year by revealing to my sch frens this blog that i have kept in secret for more than a year.. so that my spiritual life is open for all to see. but i post the same post on both blogs 80% of the time.. hahah so it doesnt really matter, accept for some of the more sensitive issues that onli u all can understand. but its open for all to see.
the past year has definitely been an exciting ones.. with my school class opening up a lot more, from a bunch of majority introverts to a group of siao pple siao enuf (and committed enough) to organise 3 class gatherings in the past holiday. also, the june and youth camps were great.. learnt lots thru it. hmm and i got my first taste of eros thru it too.. if u noe what i mean. hahah and there was a major downturn somewhere in july-august that cannot be blogged abt.. and i am still seeking understanding and answers for the whole issue. hahah. love is a mystery.
but also that issue has brought me closer to many of the youth, like shawn and candice. and it looks like its more or less on the road to recovery for now.. altho i still have much to learn. june camp was fun altho a bit hard.. but youth camp at sentosa gave me the feeling i first felt @ june camp sec 3.
and despite all this i still managed to do well in my academic area. thank God.
as always, i am SO reluctant and sad sch is starting again. hahah this ISTJ doesnt like change u see. but its inevitable. but slacking and daydreaming still rocks lol. anyways, heres a faint outline of my goals for nxt year:
1. continue with at least my spiritual goal of memorising 3 verses a week.. hahah as the verses accumulate it gets more and more difficult.
2. find more time to talk to God.. i thought i cud use long bus rides or travelling time.. but its not condusive.
3. help out in every way needed for the youth group
4. take the guitar ATCL recital exam.
5. survive my first year of IBDP.. hahah its been a longggggg time since i last talked to girls who are the same age as me.
yeap tts abt it.. i thank God for the past year and all its challenges!! and i trust in Him to guide me in the year ahead.
