u noe, i think singaporeans really shud be happier. is life in singapore that dismal.
i have enough with 'school sucks' and 'why am i in ib', or 'so-and-so teacher is lousy, lesson so boring' etc etc. it doesnt really matter if a teacher cant teach or what. as long as he or she can hold your attention for the lesson time thats all im looking for. and so what if theres a lot of homework.. i also have what. life is very fair one. and just now my maid was uttering this complaint under her breath about how i make tea to drink at night. urh.. its this sleepy tea from lijiang i bought. whats wrong with making tea at night? not like my tea is going to kill somebody or what. and my sis is forever throwing tantrums around the house. sigh.
see now im complaining too. lol.
went for a seminar on scholarships on saturday afternoon and this guy was talking about how singapore ranked 131 in a survey of happiness and no. 1 being people who live on this island called Vanuatu. hahaha. maybe we shud just sell all our stuff in singapore and go live on some deserted island. maybe then we'd be happy.
haha this is ultra funny, got this off a website declaring nigerians as the happiest people in the world:
PATH TO HAPPINESS
Genetic propensity to happiness
Marriage
Make friends and value them
Desire less
Do someone a good turn
Have faith (religious or not)
Stop comparing your looks with others
Earn more money
Grow old gracefully
Don't worry if you're not a genius
the onli point i disagree with is Earn more money. lolol.
just to make sure my this blog is not dying, i shall update. haha.
sch is just.. sch. the weekend has been rather restful i guess, spent yesterday morning practising music then in the afternoon i went for some seminar on scholarships. yeap but what im really sourcing for is a scholarship that allows me to do music and something, not in singapore. anyone with contacts pls tell me hahah. went to watch my sch's chamber orchestra's concert in the evening.
today after church went to irvin's house to record some stuff for candice's birthday, which is tml, happy birthday candice!!! and went back to 6pm to lead songs, which i havent done in really long.
yup and after doing so much i feel tired, but rested. quite amazing. looks like i will skip practising guitar for tonight, its good to take a break once in a while haha.
ok then. today's been great. cya.
ok chia lynn i've relinked u. lol all u ENFPs... like to change this change that.. i've had my blog for more than 1 1/2 years! and my sch blog is 2 years old.
its the middle of the wk and i guess im totally exhausted already. im somehow glad that my guit teacher cudnt have lesson tonight so i can rest and do some work. and have some time to myself.
ok random quote, found on a 12-roll toilet paper wrapper: "Are you buying more toilet paper or AIR?"
k nothing much. cya
yesterday at mep concert me and my sec 3 friend pulled off some silly trick on stage to get the audience to laugh. we interupted the performance to exchange guitars in a weird manner. heres how the conversation goes:
joshua lim: *smacks his guitar to make a noise
"Your guitar..
its nice..
its black.. (i was using my black coloured guitar haha)
i want it..."
me: "No you cant have it.."
joshua lim: why?
me: cos its mine
joshua lim: please?
me: No...
joshua lim: just for this performance?
me: *suspiciously "okay.."
joshua lim snatches the guitar from me and we continue with our performance, triumphant as the audience breaks into laughter.
you know these days i've been talking a lot to people older than me, like jason last wk, and also danny, a visitor today, about what they're studying in uni, or plan to study, or what they're doing.. and sometimes i cant help wondering about my own future. will i reallllly be pursuing music? what if i dont? so what age will i REALLY start dating? and who? what will my job be?
oh and today uncle lee hock shared with us again about later in life if we want to marry someone from another church and the differences in interpretation of doctrines and their effects.. yeap something to think about.
so many questions. but the thing is, i know the answers to none of the questions right now. i'm just trying to keep up with whatever work the sch throw at me (just found out about a physics prac due tml a few hours ago in my diary lol). and i really trust God to lead me wherever i go, in the next 1 1/2 yrs b4 army, during army and after that. i cant really see veri far ahead, but, Romans 8:28.
ok tts all for now. gtg sleep.. with my partially finished physics prac. haha.
sometimes God calms the storm that is raging..
but sometimes God lets the storm rage and calms the child.
today's competition.. or rather 'competition' was.. well rather disappointing.
the whole set up was well.. not the best of performance settings. cold, no warm up.. enough to get u nervous and shaking. plus the hall we were playing in the acoustics werent made for guitar playing, and they dint give us mike, so i think we couldnt be heard effectively beyond the first row.
well typical average performance i guess. haha mr choo says we shud take less time to tune. and joshua lim super champion.. turn up for competition in his signature black shirt, berms and sandals. like LOL lah. but i think his tango en skai was quite ok. but like wise the projection factor just spoils it all. there was one other 'competitor' in our segment, a violinist who looked as if she had already completed her ATCL or something. she was awarded a bronze, while me and joshua were awarded certificates of participation.
so..
1) dun take so long to tune
2) dun use strings that u've nvr used b4 for a competition
3) the audience makes quite a big difference to a performance.. this audience was small, and a bit cold.. nvr clap after the first piece, only clap at the end of the perf. and performing to music HL class, and complete strangers is totally different.
4) if possible, DO try to warm up b4 a performance
5) for guitars get a mike if the place is too big and u cant project
6) they need to invent on the spot hand warming devices
7) i want a new guitar lol.
ah well. the bus ride back was more draining than the competition itself. enough said then. i'm going to go console myself by playing guitar again later. haha.
went back to sch today for music exam. decided to treat it more as a fun thing rather than an exam.. that way can take it with less stress haha.
indeed it is weird to go back to sch after 7 days of resting. its nice to be able to wake up every morning over the past few days and experience the morning and reflecting instead of worrying what periods there are on that day and sitting couped up in class where u feel only the aircon and see only the whiteboard and worksheets.
music exam was okay.. but was really pooped after the paper.. cos i havent pushed myself to think so hard in a wk haha. and also my shingles are STILL not completely gone.. so i came back to sleep haha.
care team tonight is at hannah's house. kk tts all.. cya
"if you always do what you always did, you will always get what you always got." - Howard Hoffman
it's always good to do something new everyday, i think i will be striving for that haha.
today in the newspapers reported in life section page 7 about this taiwanese singer with the same PIN YIN name as me.. thankfully not exact same chinese characters. haha was really funny when shawn pointed it out to me this morning. the whole article is so corny lah. and his album cover looks absolutely disgusting, its titled elf. 
yucks!! haha. just looking at it makes my skin go all funny.. like it wasnt funny enough.
hello again.
its day 3 of mc.. and the pain is kinda starting to set in. the website says that some patients cant even bear their clothes touching their affected area of rash.. and i'm becoming one of them haha. its kinda tormenting just rolling in bed trying to find a comfortable position and not being able to fall asleep. was so pooped today that i cudnt go to church in the morning. was still kinda groggy in the late afternoon but i told myself that i shud go for 6pm (:
ytd just spent the afternoon talking to my good band fren from acjc. enjoyed the time, but was pooped after that lol. looks like i get pooped real easily. then when i try to sleep cannot -.- haha.
yeapp still got 4 more days of mc/holiday left. i'll be resting well. if u want can come and visit me also *wink*
well the past few days have been a whirlwind of events.
it's been mugging non stop for the exams the past few days.. econs was 50% complete, physics was also arnd 50% complete, and maths was 75% complete. took the english exam ytd and it was okay.
however, i visited the doctor in the evening and i was told that the red spots on my chest and back are shingles.. gave me a 7 day mc and told me i'm not even allowed to study.
well. at first it was really mixed feelings.. i felt okay enough to sit through the maths and chinese papers today!! haha. but all my planning finally failed. i've really seen the hand of God through this incident.. i've planned and planned and planned so that i will make the exams.. but Isaiah 55:8 says "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD. instead now i'm given a seven day almost holiday, asked not to have any stress at all and just rest. i'm indeed grateful as it is liberation of my mind. it's been enslaved for really long.. and i've just been longing for some rest i read of in matthew 11:28.. and i think i've finally got it. well at least for now.
called the sch this morning, and the Presiding examiner dint really tell me what was goign to happen to me.. just wanted to know what happened and said 'rest well, bye' and hung up lol. so will i make up for the missed papers? i dunno, and perhaps its better that i dont, so i will have less stress lol.
2 Cor. 12:9 says "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." sometimes we just need to be slapped really hard so that we will realise something. i'm glad i'm so sick now.. cos that means i have more time to rest, a reason to change my ways in sch, and also more time for God.
James tells us in his book chapter 1:2, to 'Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,' well i guess this is one of the trials that has brought me joy.
and i really realise how much i love my mum.. shes gone to US until the 24th, and wont be around to keep my company when i'm sick :( haha my dad's ok.. but he onli asked me if i called the sch when i was like.. awake at 9:30am. and i dun have the security of my mum's care. ah well.
anyways if u were wondering what shingles was, well whats important is that its not contagious, as in u cant catch it from somebody else, and hits you when ur immune system is down, which was probably the case for me. the rash is on my back and chest, and onli infects one side of ur body, so i looked normal in sch. other than that, its supposed to be really bad; the rest of the symptoms u can go read up yourself :P
ok then. i can go SLACK now. :))
hello!! i'm here to blog about random stuff.
ya noe on msn i have like 150+ contacts.. but i only talk to about 10 or so? haha funny. msn wasnt the way it is when it was first launched.. or maybe it was.. hmmm.....
anyway i'm kinda going nuts from studying already. i dun really study for more than 2 or 3h a day when i'm at home.. cos i find that anything more than that isnt really effective. or maybe my brain just doesnt work normally.
the exam period feeling is coming on again.. during exam period i just cannot really control my thoughts anymore.. cos everything is just flying around in my head.. all that additional data of physics, maths and econs is causing a lot of discourse. which isnt veri gd cos i'm isTj.. Thinker.. and i think a lot. argh so i wish i cud think a lot less things and just let my mind rest. soon soon. 2 more wks. grr all you people who dun have exams.. you know who you are.. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU.. lol. diao.
i've been thinking about the option of pursuing music as career.. and its getting kinda farfetched. cos the options are diminishing.. it really hit me when my tuition teacher talked to me about it.. the music scene in singapore just isnt really good. but in the end, whatever i study in uni and whatever i do in the working world in the future, the important thing is that God's purpose for me is fulfilled. and music will continue to burn in me.. even if i dun work as a musician. options of feeding a family and all. yeap.
and also you know i was thinking.. at this age exchanging 5 sentences of conversation with someone of the opposite gender a day is a lot already.. anything feels excessive or weird? haha i dunno. so random. next time it will change i guess when i grow more mature. communication is really important in marriage. oh and i realised a lot of funny behaviour of the youth like having crushes on people and doing weird things cos of feelings is cos of maturity.. or rather a lack of it. i've definitely learnt a lot this year.. but i've still got lots to learn. i think its really important for the mind to be guarded by the Spirit.. cos thats how we will have peace, as in Romans 8.
ok sorry for the big spam of thoughts but thats what happens during exam periods i guess.. haha dun worry it onli comes twice a year. cya.
