its finally over. i can finally put my chinese clogged brain to rest.
ahh well.. the paper was ok i guess.. i think i can do quite well in the gong han provided its a tv station tt i was writing to... used 4 chengyu in 300 words ^^ the zuo wen wasnt all tt to my liking.. i was rushing towards the end, almost right down to the last word. paper 2.. i lost 4 marks due to carelessness!! my cao shuai.. and i changed 2 cloze passage answers that were correct. :(
other than that.. today was just spent playing guitar at school for ensemble practice and slacking in front of the com the whole nite. yeah.
cya
was missing u all at church today.. was working :(
today was definitely the most trying day of work cos it was a sunday, and i was working 10 - 6. i shall nt talk abt the stress of work but the little things tt makes it slightly more interesting. ok.. firstly, there was a church service held there.. and i was opening doors as usual. its interesting to see if those pple hu look like they are there for the church service thank u or nt. hmm. this shows that we are being watched all the time by outsiders. we need to be on the lookout 24-7.
also got to deliver 2 bouquets of flowers today.. lol tt was a boliao remark but yeah tt was special.
God also works in special ways. if u remmeber, i collected $7 in tips on friday. i said tt i wud use it for the cab fare from church after 8am to hyatt so tt i can reach there on time. the fare was exactly $7. i also got into the cab tt my sis and mum got out of when they arrived at church.
this friday kelvin decided to arrange a meeting to discuss the church camp. friday is my off day. thank God.
wahh.. jus woke up from my 2h nap.. ergh. singapore climate too hot liao.
today was better.. got more stuff to do.. and im the record holder for tips so far.. $7!!!!! lol. k lah.. a bit of stuff abt wad i did today.. i delivered some newspapers and faxes in teh morning.. one of the faxes cudnt fit under the door.. so i whacked the bell.. the guy was in.. so i gave it to him. turns out he was checking out.. so he asked me to bring his bags down for him.. i answered wif much hesitation.. but he gave me $2. so i lugged one trolley bag and the other handcarry bag down. handcarry so i thot. tt bag had wheels.. i found out when he walked out.. i had carried it by hand all the way down -.0
i managed to get the $5 from this grp of pple.. i was told to get a trolley and follow this guest up to the ballroom to get 4 boxes and come down again. i tell u trolleys are nt made for escalators.. goign up bad enuf.. i dropped one of the boxes when i was coming down.. lolz. got 2 escalators somemore. k lah so u can imagine. made me follow them into the car park.. somehow i think the trolley nt supposed to go there too.. lol. but anyway got tip :P
besides tt today i was asked to follow a senior bellboy to make a room change. well altho its jus moving bag from one room to another its more interesting than standing at the door. i tell u we realli cherish the moments when we get to do anything but stand at the door.
yea.. tts abt it.. tml my off day.. got chinese tuition. i think im goign back to sleep now. cya
it takes a while to realise tt we do not belong in this world.
the reality of work is setting in. u expect everybody to be like wad the ten 'touches of hyatt' are.. but in actual fact everybody is far from that. hyatt, like any sch, workplace, or any community consists of the usual variety of pple. im also suddenly hearing a lot more swear words. ytd and the day b4 we onli noticed the nicer side of the pple. today the nice pple are still nice, but there are some nt so nice pple, most of their characters ive encountered b4. sadly the nice pple hav defects (erm duh). the morning shift bell desk workers are realli nice.. will tell us if u need break then just ask.. and also quite frenly. too bad about everybody there smokes, and all of them are complaining to each other, sometimes to me abt stuff they dun like... like the boss, pple hu dun noe they need to queue for a taxi, the taxi drivers hu keep walking in and out, the pple hu cant find the ironing board in the room, and walk all the way down to complain when theres a fone..... sometimes its so difficult nt to be influenced by pple.. must u hate smth? i haven said 'i hate' for a veri long time. and i dun intend to use it on anybody except the devil.
towards the afternoon shift, there are new pple from there, and they are slightly more harsh.. quite expected for pple hu work tt late lol. and i also started developing a bit of problem undertanding malay accent.. i need to ask twice b4 i can comprehend wad they are saying (about all the bellboys are either malay or indian). anyway, toward the afternoon i felt like i was starting to screw up everything.. yeah.
anyway some interesting things tt happened today:
saw this old man running without his top, onli in shorts, he had white hair.. but his muscles were like.. more distinct than nicholas'!! lol.
i finally managed to give somebody essential information he needed. he wanted to noe how to get to marks and spencer.. and i knew how!! cos i take bus home from behind wheelock place. :)))))
this senior bellboy hu was showing us around.. he entered a room and he started wif 'now i hav a chance to explain you.' and i was like.. oh tts so my indian maths teacher!! lolol. haha.. he was having trouble wif the wireless keyboard which is connected to the tv internet. hotels are getting too high tech.
ok tts abt all.. my legs are super tired from stnading now. and dun underestimate the amount of stuff pple put in their luggage bags.
mannn. i tell u going to hotel for holiday is fun. to work there is another thing.
k lah.. my brain is so dead tt i think i shall go thru the day in chronological sequence and see wad comes to my mind.
i was super anxious this morning and ytd nite. i ate breakfast at home and was wondering how on earth i'd stomach lunch wif all my anxiety. 9:15 arrive outside the hotel in my shirt and long black pants, wif those crazy shiny shoes i always wear. wait until 9:20 and the 10 of us go in. we get stuck at security for quite long cos we need to produce ics and stuff which some pple forgot to bring. aft tt we go to the human resource room, then to a function room for orientation, from 9:40 - 11:20. basically this lady, Gwen, lectures us abt the history of hyatt, the products and services of hyatt, owners, grooming, blah, blah blah and blah. i dunno.. but for me its a bit unbearable on the brain.
okay, nxt we go get our uniforms. u may think tt a renowned has a gd supply of uniforms but actually nt realli. the uniforms look like they've been used for more than 5 yrs and some of the pockets are sown up so u cant put stuff in them lolol. anyway, after 1/2h we get our uniforms (and a bit of disappointment tt we wear until so nice to the hotel for nth) we go back to the room to stone for 1h cos our bell manager mr jed jiang (as u can see hes chinese) was veri busy (or forgot abt us). at 1pm, the security guard asks us to go for lunch first. oh and lunch is served by scanning ur ic so tt u can get rice + 1 meat + 1 veg + 1 side. the food there is ahem oily.. its realli realli farnie how the guests are treated so well but inside its nt the same wif the employees.
ok. at 2pm++ mr jiang finally appears and takes us to his office, where he lets us read this brochure and says he will test us aft 30mins (mugging) cos he has smth to attend to. then at 2:40 some informal briefing for the day takes place where the staff is briefed on vips arriving in the next few days. haha.. the lady describes the customers quite funny.. 'this guy ar.. his patience level is like that' and makes a 2cm gap btwn a her fingers. and the employees are all super funny.. the office workers scold each other, and the senior bell boys (or rather bell-dudes).. haha in the middle of the meeting they start doing farnie stuff like koping my notepad paper. haha.. our teacher told us nt to kope anything.. but yuengi morris aaron and thang koped the pen.. and they were worried.. but end up mr jiang gave us pens and notepads instead.
aft tt he took us up to 16th floor.. some suite. we sit down at a table and he gives us F&B details (moremugging) explain for quite long, ask any qns, and we ask him wad exactly wad we're supposed to do.. cos the whole day they nvr tell us. lolz. aft tt he shows us arnd a bit and lets us go. at 6. we rush off to ib talk and arrive 45mins late. compared to all tt hyatt propaganda, ib talk sounds like music to my ears.
other stuff. the pple hu work there are realli serious, but can be quit efun. the laundry pple there are realli friendly. haha. dun u jus like nice pple. ok. but the staff area tt is hidden away from the outside is realli... confusing. wherever theres space they jus build a corridor for easier accessibility. we almost got lost while trying to find out way out!! lolol. we labeled it 'the dungeons'.
yea.. tts abt it.. im super tired now. and we're supposed to memorise the opening and closing ours of outlets and BLAH. i think i jus copy it onto my notepad and when someone asks i jus refer. lolz. anyway, my hp will be off during work.. nt allowed to turn on. jus FYI.
heyyyy!!!
yay i did quite well for my exams!!! except for that core maths 52/100 (i got 78 for ad maths) lolol.
anyway, jus some highlights: chinese i got 64.. a highest in the history of my chinese in acs!!!
also, i topped the class after adding the assignment marks in for lang arts!! yay!!!! haha my mom says she cant read my handwriting on the testpaper.
also.. i hav also regained my mep 'title'!! hahahah. wif a top score of 78.. haha i realli wasnt expecting a 70-smth mark to be top!! hehe.
through God's grace, i have been able to maintain my top 5 class placing despite the terrible revision tt i put myself thru cos of stuff like mep exam, syf and yea.
to God be the glory!!
hey!!
tml is the release of common test results.. im realli realli anxious. this time i realli dun expect to do as well as b4.. but im nt ready for some surprise failures. ahhh my core maths is one of those in deep water.
nxt wk im going for work experience. its basically an experience to work (duh) for 2 wks. i got posted to work at Grand Hyatt as a bell boy!! hahahah. i heard its one of the best places to go. but when God gives you smth gd, he tends to leave out smth else. im the onli one from my class going.. the other 6 pple are all from different classes, and theres a grp of 3 or 4 of them hu are in a clique. yea so it might not be so easy. i was telling my frens how i wud rather go somewhere crappy wif frens than go somewhere nice without anyone i noe (accept heaven :P) anyanyways, i think it wud be a gd experience for anti social and shy me to work wif pple. basically a bell boy welcomes guests to hotel and yeah.
but for now, its 13h to release of testpapers!!
tml is acsi holiday!!! but i have nth to do -.-
LOL. i was jus going to blog abt ryan cabrera's new video release on mtv.. 40 kinds of sadness. then halfway thru it my sister comes and changes the channel to animax -.-'
anyway,
40 Kinds of SadnessTwo days chasing me aroundI go crazy when you're outside of my world When you're outside of my world No sounds singing me to sleep I don't want the room to breatheJust be with me Just be with me I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're gone And I feel the same thing always happens when you're goneAnd I know your just around the corner But just around the corner is not enough It's not enough My eyes are waiting at the door Just like every time before Time flies so slowTime flies so slow I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're goneAnd I feel the same thing always happens when you're goneAnd I know you're just around the cornerBut just around the corner is not enoughIt's not enough, it's not enough I don't know why it's not enough I miss you all the time And I know you kinda like it I feel (yeah) 40 kinds of sadness (ohh) when you're goneI feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're goneAnd I feel the same thing always happens when you're goneAnd I know you're just around the cornerBut just around the corner is not enough(I feel) Just around the corner's not enough(I feel) Just around the corner's not enoughI know just around the corner's not enoughI know just around the corner's not enoughanyways, i hav decided to stop playing this game called halo (smth like CS) wif my frens.. its nt tt i suck which they all think i do and maybe i do.. but i think its just getting too out of hand.. nt realli Christlike. if its jus for fun then okay.. but when it goes out of hand....
yea. anyway i cud spend tt time doing stuff more productive like playing guitar. i think i go do tt now. cya.
ok.. heres a short update of my crazy life after exams.
friday no more papers, so brought electric guit to sch to jam. hee.
saturday went shopping for my frens present, and guitar stuff. went to ps, peninsula plaza and bras basah complex. at ps the weirdest thing happened.. i jus walked a few steps from the bus stop where i alighted.. and walked from shade into sun, so i sneeze. (dunno y.. but tt always happens) then this lady stops me and asks me: "are u wif any modelling agency?" i try not to give her tt 'are u crazy look' and answer "NO". i try to walk off then she block me again. "i think u have wad it takes to join us." haha.. i jus said no and walked off, and started laffing to myself. singapore modelling agencies are getting despo man.
aft tt walked practically the whole of plaza sing, the whole of peninsula plaza and bras basah complex looking for stuff. bought a t-shirt for my frens bday and 2 packs of guitar strings, but when i came back i changing electric guitar 1st string tt timei go and turn too much w/o checking tuning.. so i BROKE THE STRING. so now i have a 5 string electric to practice on yay. lol.
i think uncle winston's lesson today was realli meaningful, wif the stuff abt money and eternity. and i oso went for 6pm, uncle henry's sermon was abt evangelism, and i realised tt i haven brought anybody to church b4. i think its time to do so.
ok tts abt it, cya
yippee!! exams are over. well at least for now... hahah.
today i woke up the most tired throughout the whole common test period. when i was doing the mcq, my hands were shaking!! oh man.. tt shows how tired/cold/hungry i was. but chem rawked. except for some qn on how to purify copper. but tts ok.. cos i found out i got approx 21/25 for my mcq section, the paper is out of 80. yay.
i jus deleted a big chunk of stuff abt guitar.. typed it out then realised it isnt realli worth ur time reading.. its too chim. anyways, ive been slacking off a lot on guit practice these 1.5 years.. its time to exponential growth again.. even if i dun realli have a goal.. nvm i set it now.. hit dip b4 army. reach or nt doesnt matter, but i'll try my best.
today.
physics was pretty ok.. got that wholesome feeling after i finished the paper.. altho there was time constraint (i had 15mins to finish section C) i still managed to get thru it yay. but still.. the mcq is super tricksy.. u dun have time to stop and think for 5 mins over 1 qn.. i jus whack one answer and shade. ahh well.
im starting to think that all maths papers all want you to choose which questions u can do and do them onli.. and leave the rest of them blank. if onli hor. advanced maths was the 4th paper tt i was rushing to finish.. and 2nd paper tt i cudnt. all the qns i seen b4 somewhere.. but jus cud nt remember how to do it. so sad.
anyways, 1 more day, 1 more paper. chemie.
hey all..
ytd.. chinese was ok lorh i guess.. as badly done as ever.. mep was quite okay.. worth studying for it.. i got tt content feeling after being able to answer 80% of the paper. yay. came back from it super tired.. so i slept at 8:30 lolol.
today. core maths. they gave us abt 4h of study time b4 tt and i spent abt 2h of it practicisng qns. then comes the paper.. i basically left half the paper blank.. came out from it shivering.. but i had some weird feeling tt i did my best.. but still screwed it.. so.. aiyah heck lah. there are seriously no guarantees.. i cant keep expecting some magical moderation to occur to pull my marks up to an A1..
anyway.. house upstairs was having some renovating works.. tried to sleep jus now but cudnt.. so now im cao ji groggy.. but still feel fine surprisingly. why cant they like.. make machinery that produces noise more musical.. dun u think tt will be cool.. instead of pissing pple off the day b4 the exams.. i mean God's temple was built without any noise.. ahh well. tts life i guess.
ad maths.physics.chem
2 days.
i dunno.. im starting to think that life is just a bundle of feelings.. and feelings are caused by some weird flow of tides in the brain.. u cannot feel happy for more than a certain period of time.. u will jus suffer from withdrawal symptoms eventually. i was feeling perfectly in control of my studies on friday nite.. with quite a bit of chem done. i woke up saturday morning and after chinese tuition at 1:00 it basically went downhill from there.
everytime i get that 'feeling' of withdrawal, i jus cant study, or nothing goes in. and now its pushed me to this point. i am sitting here at 9:30 the day b4 mep exam, given up on prokofiev's life and more or less given up on chinese and wondering why i slept so much ytd. issit all caused by tidal waves of sadness and depression in my brain? y cant we humans study like machines and ace all exams?
these 4 days seem like an entire school term ahead of me. why do i feel so alone altho i have so many friends surrounding me?
i think im jus tired.
wah i need to rest.
my mep duet practical was at 5:30.. was expecting mr choo to come at like.. 4:00 or 4:40. end up he came at 3:30. lolol. so we practiced for 1 1/2h.. was super tired. haha.. i anyhow playing throughout the whole time we practising.. then exam itself suddenly can play again.. lolz. the performance was 90% standard.. jus a few slight slip of notes.. and guess wad i was thinking when i made the mistake: 'if you keep fearing you will make a mistake u will'. immediately i hit a wrong note and i tell myself: 'see larh. told u so.' focus man.
hmm.. some realli weird thing happened.. haha visit my other blog and you will noe the complete story.. basically theres been a lot of controversy over the guitar syf central judging... the no gold with honours thingy.. and yeah. and theres some rgs guitarist hu found my blog hu i mistook for my president hus msn nick is ratiuguitar (nt realli surprised.. i was searching the net for pple hu might have blogged abt their syf..) yeah.. lucky i wrote gd stuff abt them lol. quite encouraging lah her tag.
the 2nd one was some anon guy.. hmm.. these type of tags if they show up on your board wad wud u do man.. its super scary. yeah it makes you wake up.. but isnt that guy being irresponsible for tagging as anon.. no man is perfect.. and we shudnt judge others. yeah. still considering whether to delete his tag or not. oh well...
i agree wif kelvin.. there realli isnt much privacy on the internet... be careful wad u blog.. later become like the guy hu blogged racist comments on his blog and was uncovered.
bloggers beware.
haiz.
i dun feel like studying, playing doesnt make me any much happier, playing guitar is rather depressing.. dunno why.
what are feelings? can they realli be trusted? i wonder. i haven realli been able to trick my feelings in any way.. and i dun realli try to suppress them either. this leads to weird things. weird things like the unresolve to study.
i dunno.. but everytime exam period comes, my brain jus shifts into holiday mode. maybe its the urge to play as hard as i work (which results in my brain becoming real tired) or maybe my definition of 'study' is way off from my mom's.
anyway i shall talk here a bit more about syf. even tho i made it seem like 'woah!!! we got gold!!' in the last entry, tt realli isnt the case. its more of.. 'aiya gold only'.. quoting one of my guitar fren's nicks. everybody is realli, realli sore over the 'honour-less' competition, cos there was supposed to be a special award given out to like.. 3 or so grps. in the end, as u can see, morning session no sch got, and afternoon session onli temasek jc got, crownign them top guitar ensemble in singapore. i too, seeing the rest of my frens realli sad cos got no gwh, also sad. but come to think of it.. there realli wasnt any grp realli standing out and screaming 'Gold with honours belongs to US!!' okay not literally but yeah. every sch had its flaws. so i guess.. aiyah wad to do. we cant change the decision the judges made, and we did our best, i played my solo 95%, so hu cares wad others think.
yeah tts all.. back to do hu noes what now..
