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hey. finally the holidays are here.

its time to get away from unbearable school for a while and obtain some spiritual renewal, and new direction of life.

looking forward to youth camp :)

posted by guitar123 @ 7:27 AM 0 comments

hey.

havent updated for some time.. well i have been having many thoughts about music and its place in my life. well the case is that i'm going to take the ATCL exam (trinity college 1st level diploma) at the end of this year, and about a week ago my guitar teacher told me, after hearing one of my exam pieces, that the LTCL (trinity college 2nd level diploma) would be within my reach if i prioritised for the middle of next year. quite an encouragement to me.. cos even my teacher doesnt have the 2nd level dip.

but then again my music in sch has been taking a downturn. i havent topped a single test or assignment this term.. and failed the one i got back today. like the onli test i failed this term? and it was my fault and.. its really disappointing. and also once again, the mep scholarship which i dint get. all these signs seem to point away from my future in music.

i'm really confused about how much weight i should give to this subject and how much time i shud spend on it.. cos what if God's purpose for me isnt in a career for music? which seems to be the case now. perhaps i shud just listen to my mum, (my grandma), and my results. i just dunno.

anyway, was telling nick ytd that the thing circumstances cannot kill is passion.. and i do hope this passion can continue burning.. even tho it may not take the form of a career in music which for me now is still difficult to accept.

i need to trust in God. i feel so tired.. thats why i just cant wait for the hols. i feel so stubborn too.

Matthew 6:33: But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well...

maybe some demoralisation here and there is good for u. gdnite.

posted by guitar123 @ 8:42 PM 0 comments

hey.

news is out.. and i did not get the mep scholarship.. needless to say i'm disappointed cos i wanted it so badly.. but then again God did grant me the pre-u scholarship which is still quite an achievement, so praise God. i'm also happy for my friend yingda who got the scholarship. haha i met him at holland v ytd when i was on my way to catch a concert and i was rushing late.. then he broke the news to me he received just a few minutes before he saw me. ahh well mixed feelings. it wud have been nice if we got the scholarship together tho.. but they onli give 5 a year. and there were a heck lot of other strong competitors. yeap. well anyway i trust in God's purpose.. even tho his will may not be for me to hold a career in the future.. i will still have that passion for guitar and music. sometimes i wonder if our dreams sometimes clashes with God's purpose for us in our life.. and then when we dun succeed in pursuing our dreams we get all dissapointed.. but i guess thats part and parcel of life. ultimately God's purpose is still the most important for us.

posted by guitar123 @ 8:59 PM 0 comments

today was a really great day!!

had mep scholarship interview today.. i think it went quite ok. went with 3 others from my sch to the moe hq at buona vista. on the way saw a terrible accident.. there was like a pool (or rather a puddle) of blood on the road.. eww gross.

anyways, i think the interview went quite well.. my interviewers were mostly humanities people and they were really nice and funny. got some weird questions as well as some questions about music. but i guess they really do see my passion for guitar, no faking needed. some questions were what the new students (girls) were like, some stuff about cca, whether i wud choose between this scholarship and another if i was awarded both, stuff about guitar repertoire and my pieces, whether i had tuition (!!), how i coped with my studies, etc. and i also included a funny comment in one of my answers lolol.

saw some rjc pple there and i asked them if they took physics and they said yes.. and i asked them do they noe mrs tan woon ching.. and i asked them if she was nice and they said yes. aft tt i told them she was my mum and they were so surprised. lolol.

but of cos.. was looking forward most to seeing my old fren, yingda. he chose to go to acjc and is taking music there too. our friendship has definitely been strengthened more today.. cos even tho we're in different schools and stuff its really cool that when we both applied for the mep scholarship by some crazy chance my interview was right after his. so we met a lot earlier to talk and get ourselves ready for the interview. great friend.

yeap anyways thats all for today.. going for irvin's concert later. cya.

posted by guitar123 @ 6:21 PM 0 comments

heyy.

just returned back from batam after a wkend retreat with some of the church youth. had great fun there, and my spiritual walk is definitely renewed. did lots of fun stuff there like table tennis, taboo, canoeing.. and also had a lot of good food. but best of all was the sharing. the outpouring of hearts.

still feel a little groggy now.. almost as if i havent gotten off the ferry yet lol. brain still rocking. 2 more wks to june hols!! and that means 3 wks to church camp!!! haha cant wait. to get away from school for an extended period of time to have fun with u all. yeap. now back to being groggy.

posted by guitar123 @ 5:31 PM 0 comments

hmm i havent posted anything interesting here for a long while. so heres some interesting stuff i read in the readers' digest magazine, article on Life's 25 toughest questions Answered!

1. Can love really last a lifetime?
Absolutely - but only if you churck the fairy tale of living happily ever after. A team of scientists recently found that romantic love involves chemical changes in the brain that last 12 - 18 months. After that, you and your partner are on ur own.

11. Can a man and a woman ever just be friends?
For a short time perhaps. Making the friendship last requires that you find each other at least vaguely repulsive. Good luck!!

hahahah. i guess that sorta answer's one of my sch friend's question about whether i though a platonic friendship can really exist. yup just two of the more interesting questions from the article. the rest is too long to type out.

once again, bgr always seems so complicated, but im starting to understand just a bit more.. now i kinda understand why the past years' events happened as they did. but of cos new knowledge just brings more questions. well.. thats why im just happy talking to my guy friends in sch a lot onli.. after all i can crap whatever around them and they wont mind. and i've sorta agreed with myself that talking for more than 5 mins a day with a member of teh opposite gender is a really long time. and it is!! altho it sounds reall funny haha.

sch. is so weird. i need another holiday, and less tests. a long longg holiday.

posted by guitar123 @ 10:21 PM 0 comments

woah!! its been a longggggg time.

back from china for a few days already. well i have to say that it has been a really meaningful experience, but at the same time im really glad to be back, cos my skin was so dry, and i felt like i was drifting away from God. and not to mention my guitar skills dropped a heck lot too. if u want to read a report u can go to my sch blog.. but its really long so i think u all can just take a look at the pics.

sunday was teaching the rowdy p4 class again.. then at nite had youth song and word. quite good.. well done. monday had advance. quite a small gathering of youth onli. cant wait for camp!!

back to sch again ytd was quite ok.. but today it was starting to get tiring again. all the homework flooding in after the week long trip. sigh. hope i can cope!! all the best to all those of u taking ur exams now or soon!! stop reading my blog and go study!! lolol. kidding.

posted by guitar123 @ 5:46 PM 0 comments