well then. its just a mere day left before the FYs.
i've kind of accepted the amount i've attempted to study over the past 3 wks.. phys is more or less done, any more practice will be surplus.. maths is on the verge of completion and theres tml to memorise every single thing i can about econs before the week begins, and also read through the chinese newspapers just to get my brain tuned to chinese.
i thank God for helping me to organise my time relatively well. its been a crazy 3 wks of lack of sleep and sheer lethargy. just now i went down for petras' baptism and i cant even hold a proper conversation. too tired to talk. i dun think i'll be able to sleep tonight again, but im not that worried already, cos theres onli so much i can cover tml, and when the real exam starts i dun wanna study too much anymore, cos the energy focus shud be during the exam paper itself (especially for physics, its 3h 15 mins long!!!)
k then its off now to update my other blog. cya!
looking back i really wonder how i pulled through.
round after round of exams. and still being able to maintain reasonable grades.. it truly amazes me.
its been some time before i've been through a full examination. the last time was in sec 4 last year.. this year's cts dint really count, i took onli 2 papers.
i guess im onli paying the consequence of the year's work, or shud i say slack. haha i admit that guitar does take up a lot of my time, and i guess when it comes to the exam period i pay for it.. cos i wasnt consistent enough during the year.
lets say i treated my studies as i did guitar, and lets say for every one hour time slot i've practiced guitar this year i did revision on what the teacher taught that day...
i wudnt have to study at all when it came to exams.
well but that isnt the case.
dint go to sch today.. dun ask me why, last night when i went to lie down at 7pm i told myself i wudnt go.. im not like unbelievably sick with a high fever or what.. i woke up at 6:20 with the usual headache i've had for the past few days, and just told my mum i dint want to go. took one panadol and woke up at 10:15. remarkable eh. thats 15 hours in bed. hahaha.
well then, my thoughts are a mess, i wonder where i'm going, and i'm having the usual pre-exam fatigue that makes u do unreasonable stuff like.. sleep for 15 hours? hahaha.
well then. i was reading through my archives of the exam period around the same time last year. it was quite amazing how my posts dun make me sound like i was half-dead during that period, even though i know i was.
but as the papers passed, one by one, my strength seemed to return (along with my sanity i guess haha).
i guess exams is something all of us have to go through. i've asked God for just enough energy.. just enough energy to last till the end of music paper on 12 oct. i dun care if i collapse after music or what. i just need enough energy to finish the music paper.
i feel like i need to break out of this imploding thinking.. this mental state of impending doom that keeps reminding you what u need to do, what u havent studied.. to crave knowledge just because u find it interesting.. that wud be cool.
and would certainly make exams seem very much un-exam-like.
it's that time of the week again when theres actually a pile of work waiting for u and u have yet to practice guitar for the day, but just want to do nothing, update all 3 of ur blogs and take in the coolness of the sunday evening.
after all, homework is never finished.
today was quite a good day, other than the bout of physics revision that i had in the afternoon which i will not blog about haha. what i found in uncle adrian's sermon was quite interesting, with the reality of the 'twentysomethings' being quite true.. i hope when i become 'twentysomething' i will not fall away from the church just becos we cant really fit into youth activities anymore.
joseph's sermon was quite interesting too. well done joseph!!
and i shall spend the rest of my night experimenting with jazz chords and updating my 2 other blogs. cya!!
after hearing some of jay chou's new songs..
well they all sound quite nice.. but somehow i get this feeling that they all copy something from somewhere.. familiar sounds from previous albums, and one of the intros to one of the songs sounded like a chinese version of backstreet boys' 'the call' haha. maybe jay chou is becoming too westernised lolol. the sound is difficult to explain.. its quite unlike anything the mando-pop music world has heard before. so definitely distinctively jay chou. haha.
today in school there was this hilarious incident where i peered down at my left leg that was crossed over my right in music class only to find a cockroach perching happily on the lower half of my pant leg.
what followed was absolutely crazy hahaha. i so happened to be sitting nxt to 3 female classmates and when i shook off the cockroach the girl sitting nxt to me let out this terribly ultra high pitched scream that added to the hysteria. so i chase the cockroach around with a chair trying to kill it (cos i dint want to get my shoe dirty u see) and after many misses finally managed to trap it under a chair leg but after exerting quite a bit of force it still wasnt dead. i tell u cockroaches have some ultra hard shell or smth. like eww lah.
the mep teacher added a few fatal blows to it using another teacher's submissions box and.. lol i dunno, but i was totally freaked out lah. guys arent supposed to be scared of cockroaches or what.. and im the sort who cant scream. but i think in this type of situations anybody has the right to be freaked out.. i mean who wants a cockroach climbing halfway up your leg?
lol absolutely hilarious.
hello. its been slightly under a wk.
i think irvin's perception of studies and examinations as a performance last night was quite insightful.. if only i treated my studies like my practice of guitar.. im somehow always ready to play something, and when it comes to a performance i dun need to overstress myself or what to play well.
but the problem is i dun do one hour of solid revision a day. which is what i should start doing soon.
the pursuit of knowledge i find is very unique. if u have the true heart of a learner and seek your own knowledge, u wud treasure it better, and remember it better too, rather than study it cos u must. like how i do with music.
if onli i had more time. well i know what i must do to pull myself through final year. i know that if i dun play my part God wun give me the ultimate push. so i know its my responsibility too to be committed to my studies.
k then thats all for now. cya.
and its that time of the year again. the sept hols.
i have absolutely no recollection of how my previous sept hols were spent, but this time i need to rest first before the final sprint. of cos the guilt feeling will set in and hopefully i'll get some work done in the midst of my resting haha.
today's sermon again revolved around a common theme that had been going on for the past few sermons, not to worry but to be happy. indeed we really need to take each it one tick at a time. as in really one day at a time. i realised how much i worry so much about the things that are to happen in the tomorrow and keep thinking about things in the past. maybe we should just.. think about today!! haha.
uncle cher yam came up with a joke 'which two days of the week shouldn't we worry about?' and the answer was yesterday and tomorrow. but sitting nxt to gareth i cudnt resist telling him a variation of the joke.. 'on which two days of the week shouldn't we worry on?' answer: to-day lah!!
ok veri funny chen yi. haha. cya.
