hey!!!
it's been really nice to have a long weekend to rest. especially when theres (close to) no homework!!! friday night there was HoF, then went to esplanade library on saturday afternoon to get some music research done (esplanade library isnt exactly the most exhaustive place to find resources tho) and singspiration ytd nite.
at times like this in the school term, where assignments simply pile up with almost no room to breathe, and work gets ever so monotonous, the question of our purpose in life pops up again. what exactly are we living for. hahah for the past years, when i got that feeling, i just looked forward to holidays. but of cos when the holidays came, i was like.. siann... thats when F W E D M comes in again. we were put here for a purpose.
2 more weeks to march hols. lol.
anyways, i think the lesson on heart clearing was really relevant, altho i was still struggling with some issues. how important it is to see the world as it really is. but of cos many times we are disillusioned becos of our high expectations. i think one very good example would be the world's view of love. all those hollywood sleazy movie scenes, and also not to mention jay chou's fantasy world. i have been looking back on the 22nd jan list of 'what i look for in a girl' (lol) entry and there is an extra point i want to add: must be a good friend. yeap.
okay thats all for now.. going to sleep soon. cya.
its friday nite!! and time for another blog update.
today was a weird and funny day haha. today i got back my first music test of the year.. 8/20(!!!) lolol. our music teacher failed the whole class =X hoohoo. aft i got back my demoralising test paper, went back for english test, only to realise how difficult it really was. hahah tt must have been the worst essay i have ever written.
aft tt went home and had tuition then tried to sleep.. but cudnt really sleep soundly cos i drank peach flavoured green tea during lunch.. then when i was partially awake during my nap i brought one knee towards my body and my right calf got cramped -.- its such a terrible feeling. ouch it still hurts. lolol.
heart of a fighter series just now.. my father wanted my whole family to go down early (despite much complaining) cos he was hungry. lol.. so talked to shawn until 6:40 while waiting for more pple to come and eat with us and then we ate. tonites lesson was really refreshing (although the discussion was really O.o) one of the things that struck me the most was that relationships develop best when you bring your true self to developing relationships. i, being a veri shy person, do not always behave my true way in front of pple i am not familiar with. dun ask me why.. its just a preference i guess. so much so to a point where i was asking myself how i should really portray myself. but altho my personality description includes 'hard to know', i shall go and challenge it :P i shall be thick skinned and be myself all the time :)
i think i shall also try Laundon's 30 minutes of depression. perhaps it may improve my mood at sch. depressed for 30 minutes b4 sch every morning.. then logically after ur mood goes down it shud fluctuate up again rite.. lolol. me and my weird theories.
hahah and the super unexpected acronym from chern woon..
Washing
Ironing
Food
Entertainment
hahah but its just a joke. F should stand for a good Friend.
woah long post. tts all for tonite i guess.
in lieu of gd o lvl results (and possibly valentines day) acsi has declared tml a holiday!!!
but i shall use it wisely to catch up on hw (and hopefully sleep).
5 years ago on this day, i was baptised!! thats 5 years as a child of God. i've definitely grown a lot, but wif lots and lots of ups and downs. somehow during holidays i seem closer to the youth, and God. probably cos there arent the insecurities of undone homework holding us back from bonding. but since the past year the care team has been keeping me afloat, despite sch. also got the heart of the fighter series in church to think abt. yeap.
happy valentines day to everybody!!
hey. i havent blogged in like..really long. been really busy.
got back my o lvl results on fri.. im really thankful to God for my mep A1. despite doing my whole harmony paper in pencil, messing up prokofiev's life and all. glad for my fren yingda too.. me and him were part of the 4 pple hu got A1 dist for mep. he got 10 pts, 6 aft bonus and prob staying in acjc.
ah well. this wk got tests coming up.. hope i can make it. i really need to find more joy in the stuff i do. sch is getting more and more tiring by the day.. not to mention that piano class is not helping.. my musical knowledge is there but my piano technical skills simply arent. yupz.
and why did pringles revamp their can.. now its so narrow my hand cant fit in.
thx candice for the shirt!! i really like it!! hahah my favourite colour is red and i finally have a bright bright red shirt. woohoo. i think pple who can shop for clothes for other pples birthday presents are really pro.. especially when it comes to size and taste. :)
many things have happened, even tho there have onli been 2 days of sch this wk. hahah firstly the homework piled, and i managed to cut that pile in half over this wkend. friday there was the heart of the fighter series which i think is quite insightful.. need some time to think abt it. ytd morning i went for some IEEE olympiad for physics and chem.. and i wud say it was quite an 'eye opening' experience. max marks for physics is 6/60 if my silly answers happen to be correct. chem confirm 3 marks yay. hahah my mum says rj doesnt bother to send pple for this cos this was organised by NTU.. and students are in charge of it.. so they set killer qns cos they forgot the A lvl syllabus.
aft that there was chinese new year social and i sang qi li xiang and dui mian de nu hai kan guo lai. hahah. my first time performance of strum and sing. i think it was okay.. but will not do it again for some time lol.
hmm i have got that 'its time to revamp my life' feeling again. i realli wish everything was like music.. which has no rules and has such freedom of expression.. and is easily accepted and speaks volumes without confusion. yupz.
oh and to all who read my blog.. i love you becos you are a child of God!! haha.
