hahah care team on friday was veri fun!! happie bday shawnieee!! hope you enjoyed the party even tho the surprise sort of failed hahah.
i spent the whole of ytd slacking.. or rather trying to recover from the excitement of friday night hahah. my jing shen span cudnt last more than 10mins. so i ended up studying for 10mins, then rest wif 2h breaks in btwn. lolol. today went to west mall and i bought 1 chem tys and 1 ad maths tys. hahah its realli A BIT late but better than nothing. and my sis also can use in the future.
wif the exams arnd the corner, i have less time to think abt stuff i usually think about, which are questions pertaining to everyday renewal of faith. i think i do renew my faith and thoughts everyday... but wif all that organic chem and physics and what not inside my head.. i realli dun have time to think abt stuff so heres some stuff i will be thinking abt when the exams end.
oh b4 that i think uncle adrian's sermon was realli relevant to me, about how our feelings affect us. i've been waiting for that for a long time, cos i noticed it changes the way we think, and do stuff. hmm but it is realli not easy replacing a bad emotion (like that bad feeling that you havent studied enuf for exams) wif a gd one. feelings are always goign to be a part of life and we need to learn how to handle them properly, with reference to what the bible says.
anyway back to my thoughts: its realli difficult to see how God works in our lives sometimes, when pple fall away from the faith for example. we still cling on to that memory when they were still strong and active in the faith and wonder why they are the way they are now. not talking abt anybody in particular of course. and also the matter of changing churches and the concept of different churches. does God listen to their prayers? does God acknowledge them as Christians? in that case if someone leaves church for another church it doesnt matter cos we are all going to heaven anyhow right?
questions questions questions. i am onli a person of 16.. and i havent realli seen how someone has done something in their spiritual walk that may appear to be not aligned to the perspective i have of a real Christian, and yet has happened for a greater purpose seen later in that person's life. for example changing churches.. right now when someone leaves church it seems like a real pity.. but who knows God may have a purpose for that someone in another church. but i cannot tell.. i onli can imagine cos i havent seen many things yet.
also, the way things seem to slow down in the church during the exam period. and everything seems to 'die away'. or maybe its onli me hu feels it. and im probably dying and drifting away myself in the midst of my studies. surely there has to be an alternative in life to exams rite? i have sort of enuf of this spiritual up and down thing. there has to be a better way. challenge for myself in the future wud be to still stay spiritually strong despite all that cramping of useless science and mathematical and whatever school teaches 'knowledge' into my head which takes up so much of my mental space and concentration from God.
hmm but then again i look at the frens i have now and see God's love again, and i hang on to that to help me through this stressful period of exams. maybe i can be a strong Christian despite this exams. thanks for reading. :P
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